yep. i know … i know.. i should not be in love with him. though i knew. i knew i was wrong.
someone who lives in my heart. i fount out that i was still love him one day. i fount out that love was not pure any more.
i love . my chemistry teacher..

i was so pity that we studied together in a short time. only two months. yep. it is my fault. if i had not go to Masha in Junior three. if i am a good child. good student… then we can studied tgether for a year.
u know. when i saw you at the first time. i never had this feeling. as the begining that i have said. pity.
what a pity..

u tell me how to do in the chemistry experimentation in the afternoon. that was our first conversation..u was so serious and minutely. i look at your eyes… in the expression of your eyes. i am not only learn the knowledge from u .even i can feel your maintenance .though i don’t know u at all…

i remenber.. most of my class’s girls like the other teacher who teaches Class Three and Seven… i think they feel that guy is handsome and “man” ….. but i don’t like that teacher at all … i think he is so cool that it seems to.. he is better or be welcomed than my teacher. ..yep.. but i don’t think so… i love him more than him. i love his class also. .. he always tell us more as Miss Xu.. maybe it is a school which is the best. by the way.. ( i don’t think Masha’s chemistry teach is worse than him also. i love both them. )

i don’t love chemistry. though i want to learned it when i was in Junior one.. cuz i think it is a supernatural subject.!in fact. i don’t like the science department at all.
all things are becauze of him … i fall in love with this course. so histrionic. isnt’ it? well .. i don’t know it has happening for me. i don’t know what is the feeling about him accurate. Perhaps i have a boyfriend at that time.

i only remenber he must found the counter for me when he knows i haven’t in the enter examination of Senior school.
i only remenber that … his eyes… his phiz when he saw i put on the school skirt in the third day of the enter examination of Senior school. i won’t forgot that expression in his eyes when i saw me… this life ! never…

i also remenber that i wait for him out of the classroom when the class bell rings.
so foolish i am. i fall in love with someone who won’t love me…who i shouldn’t be in loved..
this is the second time that i fall in love with a teacher.. maybe everyone thinks it is impossible. i just a littel girl …everyone says that… how dare u have much feeling about love… am i really a bad girl.?

sigh… i still miss him.. and i remenber … i passed by No 16 middle school with my ex-boyfriends one day.. i saw him… i saw hime with some the others teacher… i threw off my ex-boyfriend’s hand immediately… i wonder why i have such feeling.. i am not afraid those teachers… i just afraid of him.. i afraid that if he knew our concern… what happen to me … i worried about his feeling unexpectely… well.. he saw me of course… but i think he no long had that feeling about me… yep.. i just his student…

i just his student… …..

Posted on 五月 24